tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-11-21:/All I want is to fall asleep in your arms and wake up to the warmth of your body next to mine, for ALWAYS. =)MokoFeed2009-11-21T01:01:19+01:00tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-08-22:/2009/08/22/had-great-two-days-6793922/karmina7172009-08-22T13:37:20+02:002009-08-22T13:37:54+02:00 <p>My last two days were full of love. :]<br> spent with my man of course! Yesterday we stayed at home and he took a picture of me sleeping. I was very embarrassed because I slept with my mouth open. (ga nganga! t nami na bla?) he just laughed at me. wahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!<br> And today we watched the movie AND I LOVE YOU SO. It was a great movie, it was about a widow who lost her husband of five months. And the movie showcased the pain of loss, of heartbreak and of having to stop oneself in loving again. But in the end,after two years, she let herself love this new guy who helped her in easing the pain of her loss. :] alls well, ends well. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/08/22/had-great-two-days-6793922/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-08-05:/2009/08/05/ang-karabaw-6656077/karmina7172009-08-05T12:03:36+02:002009-08-05T12:16:02+02:00 <p><span><span>Guys! This is our komposo for tomorrow.  Jen will play the guitar for us.  The verses with the <span>(*)</span> are the ones we added to our komposo. Here is the tune though. PLEASE memorize. Thank you.</span></span></p> <p>Ang Karabaw</p> <p>Didto sa amon baryo<br> May isa ka karabaw<br> Ngalan niya si Tyo karabaw<br> wala unto sa ibabaw</p> <p>Wala man siya gakadlaw<br> kag wala man ga kusmod<br> kayman ini nga karabaw<br> wala unto sa ibabaw</p> <p>*Panag-iya ni 'Lo Kardo<br> nga may dose ka apo<br> pinakapisan sa tanan<br> pirmi gasuroy sa lutakan</p> <p>*kon mag abot ang tiniun<br> nga siya na gutumon<br> ang aton mga pananom<br> iya gid nga harabon</p> <p>*Gaubra siya kun aga<br> tubtub gid sa kahapunan<br> kon siya gani mag luya<br> aton siya nga ihawon</p> <p>tapos na ang istorya<br> sang karabaw nga abyan ta<br> mapuslan gid ang karabaw<br> sa aton pang-adlaw-adlaw</p> <p>-oOo-</p> <a href="http://www.imeem.com/"><img src="http://www.imeem.com/embedsearch/E6E6E6/" border="0" alt=""></a> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/08/05/ang-karabaw-6656077/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-07-11:/2009/07/11/the-appetite-over-do-6489292/karmina7172009-07-11T08:24:29+02:002009-07-11T08:24:29+02:00 <p><span><span><span>NO DOUBT</span></span></span> I've <span><span><span>been hyper</span></span></span> these past few days. <span><em><span><span><span>I had flu last week</span></span></span></em><img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/graydead.gif" alt="" width="23" height="23"></span>. And I was given a handful of medicines to take up for the fever and the cough which I think was the reason my appetite was so <strong><span><span><span>hearty</span></span></span></strong>,I have been eating incredibly! <img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/icon_lalala.gif" alt=""> Lately, my bestfriend-<span><span><span>grethel</span></span></span>- gave me a butler's choco selection and so now I'm munching them with <span><span><strong><span>gusto!</span></strong></span></span> darn it, this chocolates are really nice. <span><span>How can somebody resist happiness in small boxes??<img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/graybigrazz.gif" alt="" width="103" height="103"></span></span> <br><span><span>see here!</span></span></p> <p><img src="http://www.butlerschocolates.com/productimages/10_ButlersI.jpg" alt="" width="400" height="350"></p> <p>ooooohhh!!!!!!! *CHoMp!* *ChoMP!* haha</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/07/11/the-appetite-over-do-6489292/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-06-28:/2009/06/28/tonight-i-ll-be-dreaming-with-a-broken-heart-6413326/karmina7172009-06-28T15:50:56+02:002009-06-28T15:53:34+02:00 <p>i am afraid to face you tomorrow. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> but I want to talk to you badly. I don't know what to expect tomorrow. You might not give me the chance anymore. and I am afraid. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry I ruined everything.<br>I just wish I could take back what i said. But I can't and the damage is done and I am sorry about it. I really am. Please give me a chance. I love you.<br>All I want is you.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/06/28/tonight-i-ll-be-dreaming-with-a-broken-heart-6413326/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-06-28:/2009/06/28/i-am-sorry-6409779/karmina7172009-06-28T05:44:12+02:002009-06-28T05:49:51+02:00 <p><img src="http://data3.blog.de/media/330/2438330_5d04f91054_m.jpeg" alt="umuahh!"><span><span>I'll always love you. :'(</span></span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/06/28/i-am-sorry-6409779/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-06-27:/2009/06/27/cw-one-tree-hill-6404005/karmina7172009-06-27T10:58:31+02:002009-06-27T10:58:31+02:00 </p> <p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span>This is the theme song for OTH's season premiere and I'm liking it. Esp. the chorus part.</span></span><br><span>Cheers for Gavin DeGraw!!!</span></span></span></span><br></span><br><span>Next up: Sophia Anna Bush a.k.a <span><span><span>BROOKE penelope DAVIS</span></span></span>. The most lovable of OTH's leads.<br><img src="http://www.the-planets.com/star-biography/Sophia-Bush-Biography.jpg" alt="" width="364" height="551"><br> </span>definitely a looker♥<br></span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/06/27/cw-one-tree-hill-6404005/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-06-26:/2009/06/26/my-vantage-point-6398329/karmina7172009-06-26T16:36:20+02:002009-06-26T16:36:20+02:00 <p>I am lost. AGAIN.<br>I couldn't seem to find my way now. I couldn't even see it. My vision's blurred. My mind's muddled. <span><strong>My heart</strong></span>? it's <span><span><span>hurting</span></span></span>. --THAT, I am sure. <span><em><span>It's supposed to be easy now.</span></em></span><br><strong><span>No more arguing.<br>No more curses.<br>No more shouts.<br>No more fights in the car.<br>No more HURTING.</span></strong><br>darn it. I <strong><span>don't want</span></strong> this! I don't want <strong><span>any of this</span></strong>. Things have gone too far. And I AM NOT HAPPY CRYING OVER AND OVER AGAIN! I had <strong><em><span>too much</span></em></strong> already. This <strong><span>past year</span></strong> you have dumped on too many thorns in my ridiculous heart and I am not wanting any more of it. SO PLEASE! just stop being a <span><span>jerk</span></span>. You should be <strong><em>able to understand</em></strong> me coz you were the one who put me through all those<span><strong><span><span> pathetic </span></span></strong></span>moments!<br><span><span>If these things keep on stirring, then I'm throwing in the towel.</span></span></p> <p>I sure as hell don't need someone who mistook my tears for a teaser.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/06/26/my-vantage-point-6398329/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-06-25:/2009/06/25/it-s-white-and-it-s-right-6388141/karmina7172009-06-25T15:06:43+02:002009-06-25T15:06:43+02:00 <p>what? my blog, of course. :] </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/06/25/it-s-white-and-it-s-right-6388141/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-04-09:/2009/04/09/trying-to-be-blase-5916643/karmina7172009-04-09T14:47:18+02:002009-04-09T14:58:34+02:00 <p>Facing the morning with the usual thought of him made me feel morose. There's no denying that. Last night I was reading a book of a saga (I've read it already last yr w/c I decided to read again just to alter my thoughts) and I was on the soppy part of the book when I received a text from him. STOP. I don't wanna talk about it or him anymore. What for? let's just wait and see what happens when he get back coz I myself don't know anymore how to deal with this and what to do with him.</p> <p>Anyways, I think today <span><strong>I've improved in acting oblivious</strong></span>. I wish I could master it and be just like men--life's <span><span><strong>COMPARTMENTALIZED</strong></span></span>. (& I really wanted to asked my prof why there are <span><strong>m</strong><strong>ore suicidal males than females</strong></span> if they know how to set their priorities right?!)</p> <p>So here's a list I've made on <em><span><span><span>how to be OBLIVIOUS</span></span></span>:</em></p> <p><span>1. Be UNMINDFUL.</span><br>-of course you can't command your mind to forget. Subconsciousness prevails. ;) therefore think," Why shoud you care when he doesn't?"</p> <p><span>2. DON'T welcome FREE TIME</span>.<br>-keep yourself busy. your MIND busy. (as for me, having a good book will somehow take effect)</p> <p><span>3. DON'T SHUT OFF your mobile.</span><br>-there you'll see if he really cares. [don't worry if he won't care, it's HIS LOSS babe.)</p> <p><span>4. take DELIGHT in SIMPLE THINGS.</span><br>-again, this is to alter your thoughts. appreciate little things like seeing a bright full moon. procrastinating pleasure. seeing a pregnant lady exercise. (I know I'm stupid)</p> <p><span>5. LOVE YOURSELF</span>.<br>-let him be.</p> <p>***caution: this is just for me. I don't know if it works for you. hhurrhhh.!<br>I thought I said I'm not going to talk about him anymore? uggh.♥</p> <p></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/04/09/trying-to-be-blase-5916643/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-04-08:/2009/04/08/all-i-can-think-of-is-douledutchdoubt-5910814/karmina7172009-04-08T13:59:17+02:002009-04-08T13:59:17+02:00 <p>You're sooo making me upset! how can you be so annoying?! SIMPLE! you can't <span>understand me</span> coz you're <span>not willing to</span>. <span><span>Y<span>ou're hearing my words yet you are not listening</span></span></span><span>!</span> see the <span><span>BIG DIFF</span></span>?? plain arrogance. <span>pft</span>.<br> you're too busy with your break, so set off! stop bothering me! you're just making me madder and madder! uuuggghH! I hate you <span>much much much!!</span> you clearly know<span><strong> I'm not a fan </strong></span>of -TEXTs- and you very well know <strong><span>it doesn't do any gooood!</span></strong> get it?! so why don't you just enjoy there and <strong><span>make up when you're back here??</span></strong>. THAT is if you have plans of making up. coz as far as i know you're <strong><em><span>too full of yourself </span></em></strong>to mind other things like <span><span><span>r-e-l-a-t-i-o-n-s-h-i-p-s</span></span></span>! or merely having a GF. ring a bell?! If you think I'm all this <span><strong><span>FUSS TO YOU</span></strong></span> then why won't you just drop it?!. kaulugot aH! S>T>O>P it!<br>Enjoy ka da! Do whatever you wanna do! coz i'm soooo fed up na gd ja! <strong><span>you think i'm happy with you taking me for granted??</span></strong> EASY for you to say you'll make up and blahs!!!<span> I doubt you. 100xs!</span><br><span><span>and i still fKuciN L-O-V-E you!!! ambot ah! ggrrrr!<br><span><span>[hating how MUCH i love you huh???????]</span></span><br></span></span></p> <p></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/04/08/all-i-can-think-of-is-douledutchdoubt-5910814/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-04-08:/2009/04/08/when-walls-start-to-tumble-down-5909136/karmina7172009-04-08T08:34:37+02:002009-04-08T08:40:33+02:00 <p>I'm not like this. Before. I can write. <strong><span>Write random stuff and words become superfluous</span></strong>. Now everything's <span><strong>FLAT</strong></span>.<span> <span><strong>dead fla</strong><strong>t</strong></span></span>. I'm done editing my blog now. spent hours on this. I'm not bored though, I just don't have something to do.<br>Now i'm stuck with the pc again for the <span>hundredth</span> time since last week. I think I don't write as much as before coz i'm so <span><span>fed up</span></span> with the reactions I get.(from the <strong><span><em>person</em></span></strong> who really <span><span>MATTERED</span></span>!) For days(or weeks?!) i've been jaded by thoughts. Thoughts which matter <span>to him </span>to my friends. Again, TO MY FRIENDS. <span>they're the ones who LISTENED</span>. He's not interested in hearing me. He's too busy. Too busy to even see me for 5 darn minutes!<br>=Gawd! <strong>Y would I care if he doesn't even care</strong>? "U missed the monthsareee babe! remember???"<br>and <span>hell you know Y it's much more important </span>than its<span> LITERAL</span> meaning! !@#$ I'm <span><strong><span>DISAPPOINTED.</span></strong></span> Include the <span><span>PAIN.</span></span> and while you enjoy there <span><span><strong>don't expect me</strong></span></span> to sulk here.<br>I'm <span><em><span><span>unintrested</span></span></em></span> as to where this squabble will take our relationship to,cause<strong> even if </strong>it'll turn out to make <span><span>better or worse of us</span></span>, it fCukin' <span> <span><strong><em><span>HURTS!!!</span></em></strong></span></span></p> <p></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/04/08/when-walls-start-to-tumble-down-5909136/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-02-24:/2009/02/24/contacts-turmoil-5641446/karmina7172009-02-24T15:32:06+01:002009-02-24T15:32:06+01:00 <p>ugghh! i'm using daily lens wear and this morning when i went off to school i left my eye lubricant.! I mean it's very important cause it somehow keeps your eye from drying that would keep my eyes from tiring but because i'm a klutz i left it.<br> good thing i can make my eyes teary when i want to!(love my tear glands!lol) so that's my <em>NATURAL</em> cleanser. haha<br> when i got home i immediately took em off as what my bf has advised, coz before, because of being soooo tired, i slept with my lenses on. when i woke up, my eyes were very itchy and my vision was blurry ughh.<br> so tonight, i'm using my glasses. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"><br> although lenses are much propitious, I still raise 2 thumbs-up for eye-glasses.! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/02/24/contacts-turmoil-5641446/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-02-13:/2009/02/13/learned-5565422/karmina7172009-02-13T10:56:01+01:002009-02-13T10:56:01+01:00 <p><span><strong><span>i had a great time with my JB 2day!</span></strong></span><br><strong><span>he came here at around 2pm. we played nfsII, and yes!<br>i won twice in a row! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0"> lucky i used the joystick while he<br>the keyboard. and he didn't know how to drift..bleee!<img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0"></span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>sad part, he's going out to some party tonight.! and!!!!!<br>that dame might be there... ugghh..ew. anyway's<br>any1 can't do anythin bout it cz his papa sed so. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"><br>and i'm stuck here.. worrying. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"><br>║"in,indi bla mag worry.trust me."<br>okay,okay i won't.i hope.</span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>"i trust u,not the people u'r with."</span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>&infin;"punko lng ko 2 ah,di ko mg saot2x yah." <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>§..dpat lng,ako lng sauton muH! haha<br></span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>right after the ±dugsing,we drove off to some store and bought some food.<br>I got a pint of ice cream and he grabbed &clubs;chicharon! <br>○puli kmi daun kag kaon ah! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0">)<br>&spades;"kabitin ah! huhu!" he exclaimed<br>referring to his chicharon. ☻isa lng buy ya mung! haha</span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>OMyGee!I'm sooo happy gd ya! he taught me how to drive his<br>manual auto. kulba ko ya eh! haha<br>peru sadja gdddd!!! 1st gear plng kg steady reverse. <img src="/img/smilies/graylaugh.gif" alt=":))" class="middle" border="0"> LOL</span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>~hope, everything will be alright tonight.<br></span></strong></p> <p><strong><span>:<br>║in don't worry,trust me.<br>&infin;i'll just sit there,i won't dance with any1.<br>§you must'nt! cz u'r my partner!<br>±cuddling<br>&clubs;cooked&fried pigskin<br>○we then went home straight and ate.!<br>&spades;wasn't enough<br>☻he bought only 1 pack!haha<br></span></strong></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/02/13/learned-5565422/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-01-31:/2009/01/31/food-marathon-5480142/karmina7172009-01-31T11:02:29+01:002009-01-31T11:06:32+01:00 <p><span><span>OMyG.</span><br>I ate a lot since yesterday!<br>I had a heavy breakfast because I went mad for BAKARETA.(an oriental food of beef,potatoes,bell peppers,etc)<br>and then JB and i had chicken and pizza for lunch.<br>When I got home, I ate HEAVY snacks again by midafternoon.!:<<br>OkaY!<br>I Won't eat anything until tomorrow!<br>I ruined my diet...! huhuhuhu<br>(Paranoid)</span></p> <p><span>I hate it when I act like this. Hurhhh.<br>Anyways, today,<br>we went to the GK village in the rurals on talisay for our NSTP community class<br>and we planted (of course,) plants.! :)</span></p> <p><span>------<br>my mom sat down with me and asked to view and listen to the music of F.Sinatra,N.K. Cole,P. Anka,<br>and etc. to download for my grandparents' G.Wedding Anniv.<br> GooooSh. I went drowsy. :[<br>-----<br>so, after our community class,we went back to the city and back to our lives.!</span></p> <p><span>(I'm sorry i feel so dumb right now, I'm writing nonsense stuff:( )</span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/01/31/food-marathon-5480142/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-01-29:/2009/01/29/hear-this-5468850/karmina7172009-01-29T13:27:16+01:002009-01-29T13:27:16+01:00 <p>This month, we broke up again.<br>and we made a lot of mistakes. I've hurt him and he have hurt me.<br>and our actions caused too much pain and ruined a lot of things that which keep us from<br>getting back together.</p> <p>And at present,we are still acting the way we used to be to each other while<br>we are mending our crestfallen hearts.<br>I believe, in time, when memories wont hurt us anymore,<br>we'll be back in the battle for love <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> as he says so. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>JAYVEE, I do LOVE you.<a title="river flows in you" type=""application/x-shockwave-flash"" href="<div style="width:300px;"><object width="300" height="110"><param name="movie" value="http://media.imeem.com/m/zJt5PVnstS"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="><br></a></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/01/29/hear-this-5468850/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-01-29:/2009/01/29/through-time-5468745/karmina7172009-01-29T13:03:06+01:002009-01-29T13:03:06+01:00 <p><span>he was my whole life. and it came to a point where everything changed.<br>EXCEPT, my love for him. :]<br>a lot happened last Nov. we broke up.<br>but at the end of the month,we reconciled.<br></span></p> <p><span>that's all. :]</span></p> <p><span>nahhh!<br>last dec.6, we celebrated our 1st anniversary!!! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"><br><a title="anniversary" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/anniversary/3185507"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/507/3185507_20a1fe39a6_s.jpeg" alt="anniversary" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a></span></p> <p><span>it was a year full of endless love and pain. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"><br>and I AM HAPPY i lived it.<br></span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/01/29/through-time-5468745/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2009-01-29:/2009/01/29/my-1st-entry-for-the-year-5468595/karmina7172009-01-29T12:42:04+01:002009-01-29T12:46:06+01:00 <p><span><span><span>bloggers!</span></span></span></p> <p><span><span><strong>I won't let the 1st month of the year pass without a word from me. LOL<br>I'm really sorry it has been 3 months since I last posted.<br>well..that would mean 3 things:(might be's)</strong></span></span></p> <p><span><span><strong>1st. I was BUSY(w/c is,well,believable.)<br>2nd. I don't have anything to write(LAME REASON!!!!)<br>3rd. either I was too depressed to write or too happy.</strong></span></span></p> <p><span><span><strong>So! now... i think I don't have anything left to do.<br>well i have many THINGS to do. like school papers, chores and etc.<br>but i'm currently too lazy to stay away from the pc.<br>I miss blog making!<br> darn it! <br>well.. since my last post, a lot of things happened.<br>to my life, my friends, my love.<br>period.</strong></span></span></p> <p><span><span><strong>(nextentry'sdrafted) i'll just try to make it out.<br>my mind's totally baffled! my thoughts,jumbled.<br>so i'll try to relax first and i will share you some stuff.</strong></span></span></p> <p><span><span><strong><span><span>I PROMISE, not to abandon this blog for this is one hell of an<br>emotional outlet. UugghH!.<br>sorry,status:(upset)<br>ciao!</span><br></span></strong></span></span></p> <p><span><span><strong><span><span><br></span></span></strong></span></span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2009/01/29/my-1st-entry-for-the-year-5468595/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-25:/2008/10/25/13-surprises-on-seventeenth-4929540/karmina7172008-10-25T13:28:55+02:002008-10-25T13:31:29+02:00 <p><span>JAIVEE!!! mwuahh!!<br> thank you so much for EVERYTHING!!!!..<br> thanks for making my birthday joyful and perfect!<br> I was reaallyy surprised when you gave me the cake!<br> hurhhh!!... the perfume and the letter and the chocolates were<br> already <strong>more than enough</strong>, you, YOURSELF is already <strong><span>enough</span></strong> and gosh you bought me a cake!<img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/smiley-cry2.gif" alt=""><br> you made me teary with your greeting card.. thanks.<br> And you! You! you silly! I thought you weren't going to dinner!<br> I wasn't on the mood to celebrate when you said your dad won't let you<br> go out that night! I cried you jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br> but then again, you SURPRISED mE!<img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/graybigeek.gif" alt="" width="39" height="39"><br> thank you for showing up..<br> <em><span><strong><span><span>YOU</span></span></strong></span></em><span><span> ARE THE <span><strong>BEST</strong></span> GIFT I RECEIVED</span></span><span><span><span>.</span></span></span><img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/smiley-embarassed.gif" alt="" width="43" height="43"></span></p> <p><span>thanks again hunnie,<br> I Love You!</span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/25/13-surprises-on-seventeenth-4929540/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-25:/2008/10/25/surprises-on-seventeenth-4929487/karmina7172008-10-25T13:12:33+02:002008-10-25T13:13:50+02:00 <p><span>It was the best birthday so far!<img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/060lol.gif" alt=""><br> we just had a simple dinner with pizzas and grilled chicken and cakes!<br> I had 5 of my friends came over and we had fun eating and talking and watching tv.<br> my friends melted some marshmallows. We didn't have sticks and coals to build some fire outside.<br> So they had it melted on the stove. LOL.<br> I had TWO cakes!-from Jayvee and Mama. Chocolate and ube. Just my favorites!<img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/08wink.gif" alt=""><br> It was fun blowing seventeen candles.<img src="http://www.blog.co.uk/image/smileys/06razz.gif" alt=""><br> It was funny cause the wax melted on the cake(but of course we were able to get them off before we ate it!)<br> hehehe<br> thanks for everyone! Especially JAYVEE!!!!!<br> mwuah!</span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/25/surprises-on-seventeenth-4929487/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-16:/2008/10/16/12-whattaday-4881024/karmina7172008-10-16T14:17:29+02:002008-10-16T14:17:29+02:00 <p>hüNniE!...<br>I'm sorry about earlier this morning.. I was expecting to see you outside the foodcourt as what your last text said, & I was disappointed when I didn't found you.<br>& when I found you, you said you sent me a text that you'll be in SD, but I haven't received any.. I'm SORRY I swore. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> I shouldn't have bickered at you like that.. Maybe it was bcoz of the tension I had after taking the acctg exam and my frustrations after not seeing you there, but hell I really am sorry I wasn't able to calm down and shut my mouth..<br>My knees weakened when you started to walk away. (dang.)<img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/smiley-cry2.gif" border="0" alt=""> I can't stand you walking away. <br>Anyhow, thank God you didn't. I wouldn't know what to do if you did. And thanks for staying with me and waiting for my mood to change back in. We just had a misunderstanding. Hurhh. I really hate arguing with you, hurting you. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> I don't want to hurt you any more.</p> <p>bAby, thanks for bringing me to the movies, I enjoyed watching <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> and thanks for dot3 <img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0"> I felt loved today. hope you feel how much I love you too everyday, for always.<img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/08wink.gif" border="0" alt=""></p> <p>from your zealous lover,(hahaha<img class="smiley" src="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/tinymce/jss/plugins/blogdeemotions/smilies/06razz.gif" border="0" alt="">)<br>.minaaaa.<br><br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/16/12-whattaday-4881024/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-09:/2008/10/09/11-lunch-rain-and-love-4845137/karmina7172008-10-09T15:09:26+02:002008-10-09T15:09:26+02:00 <p>there weren't much for today but it was a wonderful day.<br> thank you for having lunch with me! how I wish I always spend lunch with you even for just quick bites. I love your company on noon breaks. You're so cheery and you're hyper <img src="/img/smilies/graysmilewinkgrin.gif" alt=";D" class="middle" border="0"><br> I had fun running off on the road with you. The rain was a blessing. The soft drizzle and the running relaxed my full stomach <img src="/img/smilies/graybigrazz.gif" alt=":P" class="middle" border="0"><br> I keep watching the video we took. Missed you again <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"><br> awww.! It's just been hours! hurhh!..<br> mwuahhhh!!<br> thanks for the LOVE Hun! and the nonsense talks & laugh trips you've shared with me earlier!<br> THANK YOU for today. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>lovelovelove from,<br> ♥min <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/09/11-lunch-rain-and-love-4845137/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-08:/2008/10/08/10-perfect-4839763/karmina7172008-10-08T15:23:15+02:002008-10-08T15:30:48+02:00 <p>Things started to bloom its way back to life the moment you came back.<br> Dull things lightened and became clear. Useless stuff became important.<br> Everything matters now that your here. Everything became significant.</p> <p>It's funny how love can rule my life. How you became MY LIFE. Every night I have thoughts of you before dozing off to wondrous dreams. Beautiful dreams spent with you. And the nightmares that follow whenever you leave that tire my eyes with tears. But each morning, my heart cheerfully welcomes the day. Thanking God for giving me more time to spend this life with you. Another chance of loving you, and to feel loved by you.</p> <p>You make everything perfect just by your presence. I appreciate simple things because of you. I always want to be with you. ALWAYS.<br> hurrhh.. Like whenever I'm in class or reading a book, I always wish that you're with me. Always imagining that you're in my bed watching tv or sleeping when I'm reading, or sitting with you in class again,(oh I miss those times!but, I sure will get distracted if we have to sit together in a class<img src="/img/smilies/grayyes.gif" alt=":yes:" class="middle" border="0">) (I'm being selfish! haha!<img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0">)</p> <p>I love your warmth. The perfect mold of your body when we hug. Your wide soft hands that holds me and guides me whenever we cross a street.<br> I love the shiver that runs through me when you place your hand on my back locking me to you. The cute facades you make just to cheer me up.<br> the sweet puppy dog eyes and that seductive pout you make (Honestly, this makes me want to kiss you.)<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"> so don't do it too often.<img src="/img/smilies/graylaugh.gif" alt=":))" class="middle" border="0"> I love your silly jokes and the way you take out the lettuces&tomatoes in your burgers. I love your appetite that competes with mine! *Admit it, we both have big appetites <img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0">* I love the simple YOU <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>I love the way we cuddle and I love getting intimate with you. I love your soothing whispers and the way you comfort me. The way your hands wipe my tears away and the way you stare at me. There's so much in you that I love. NO, EVERYTHING in you is perfect and I love YOU.<br> I love your being stubborn at times(although I'm more stubborn) the way you clamor when your sleepy(you look really cute) and the way you get irritated by something. hehe! mwuahh! I love you so much!</p> <p>You're perfect the way you are and I've found the best in you. You blurt out the toughest words when you're angry but when the fights over your heart shines right out. You're a good person. One great hell of an awesome kind-hearted one. And you give meaning to my life.</p> <p>I hope I can give you everything you want, just like the way you gave mine.</p> <p>LOTS OF LOVE,<br> min <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/08/10-perfect-4839763/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-06:/2008/10/06/9-hurting-a-loving-person-4829295/karmina7172008-10-06T16:02:39+02:002008-10-06T16:02:39+02:00 <p>I made a big mistake by hurting you,<br> A person who's just willing to give out his love<br> freely and truly<br> to someone who caused him pain.</p> <p>I made a big mistake by letting you down<br> broke your trust and lied to you<br> even though I knew it was wrong</p> <p>I made a big mistake by being selfish<br> thinking only of my loss<br> and chose to lie<br> And now I regret it.</p> <p>I made a big mistake by thinking you ill<br> by believing you left me.<br> but you proved me wrong.</p> <p>Never thought you'd forgive me<br> but you did.<br> I feel too guilty feeling the<br> greatness of your love.</p> <p>I made a big mistake,<br> and now<br> I'm ready to make it right.<br> thank you for giving me the chance. =) </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/06/9-hurting-a-loving-person-4829295/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-05:/2008/10/05/8-saturday-and-the-chance-4823865/karmina7172008-10-05T14:24:45+02:002008-10-05T14:24:45+02:00 <p>the moment I woke up, I was hoping you'll text me..<br> you did.. thank you <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> I was glad we'd managed to text each other.<br> I was finally gasping for hope. and you showed me.<br> I'm sorry I wasn't able to go out with you that afternoon,<br> I really want to but I couldn't. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> And I'm sorry for everything that went wrong..<br> sometimes I think if I could ever be perfect for you?<br> I know no one's perfect but you're perfect with your imperfections.</p> <p>When I saw you in the car today,<br> I felt the pain again, it tore my heart swingin open.<br> I saw your cold eyes again. shielding your emotions inside<br> where I couldn't read them.<br> It confused me, and I thought that I did something wrong again<br> that made you changed your mind.<br> thoughts flowed, if i ever get to hold your face again or touch you.<br> I tried to forget it when you went to bed<br> and I went to training.<br> But still, I couldn't forget you even for awhile.<br> I tried to tire myself during badminton and I did succeed.<br> they said I looked pale and I vomited again.<br> but then, stress is better than pain ain't it? <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>thanks for talking to me on the phone tonight.<br> I LOVE YOU.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/05/8-saturday-and-the-chance-4823865/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-05:/2008/10/05/ym-4823755/karmina7172008-10-05T13:57:20+02:002008-10-05T14:01:29+02:00 <p>I couldn't believe that friday night<br> we chatted <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"><br> the same emotions flourished from the both of us.<br> Such things made me feel how our feelings were alike.<br> how much we've hurt, how much this made us depressed.<br> how much pain I caused us,<br> How much I've thrown away <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>sitting that night and chatting with you eased the pain even for just a bit.<br> I never would have wanted to stop chatting.<br> that was the only time i felt good since last week.<br> I never thought you'd permit me to chat to you. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> thanks for letting me be with you til you slept. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> appreciate it a lot<img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/05/ym-4823755/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-03:/2008/10/03/6-sick-and-depressed-4814287/karmina7172008-10-03T06:32:05+02:002008-10-03T06:35:04+02:00 <p>I missed my RS class today. and GG. I'm too tired and I have flu. I only attended my acctg subject and went home. Missed practice too.<br> I couldn't stop myself from thinking of you. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> I couldn't let myself believe that this is the end for us. It's been more than a year that I almost spend everyday with you. Sitting beside you in high school and always talking to you. It's just to hard to let go of those memories and forget them, but I know I never will.<br> I'll never know how long I will be like this. Still hoping. though you told me that I shouldn't hope anymore.<br> That's okay, it's my fault. and I'm too depressed right now maybe that's the reason why I got sick. I've never been sick since last year.</p> <p>Everyone's saying I should let you go, like you told me to. They say that there's nothing I can do anymore.. They're right.<br> It's too harddd for me to let you go. but it would be harder if I do. The case is, I DON'T WANT TO.<br> I don't want to forget you, I don't want to forget every memory of you.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> It's all I've got. All I've got to have, to remember, to cherish. I don't have you, so why would I let go of those memories that made me the happiest?.. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>facing all these and all that might come my way,<br> I know I'll never let you go. I don't want to. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> I'll always love you. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/03/6-sick-and-depressed-4814287/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-02:/2008/10/02/5-cowardice-4811537/karmina7172008-10-02T14:34:54+02:002008-10-02T14:34:54+02:00 <p>last night, after I send the letters, I saw you were online. And your status said something like "dane, pm mo lng me mag ol ka,tnx.."<br> i'm sorry I gave u a message <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> I just can't stand not saying what i still feel for you. after saying i love you<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> I closed my ym immediately,too afraid of what will be your reply. Too afraid to know if you're good. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"><br> Instead I went to bed and tried to forget that I gave you a message. Too bad for me all I found was me crying again on your teddy <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0">.</p> <p>when I woke up this morning I don't feel like going to school. It felt like there's nothing to be excited about in going to school. and of course I know that we have the same class schedule this morning. I'm really stupid for thinking that I will catch you in the ride. I can't help staring at the stop were we used to meet. I miss you <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0">.<br> After having our first class, my classmates and I went out to print our reports. I met mnang Heidi on the way out. I felt cold and bad. But mnang Heidi's blooming and I said hello to her. When we got out of lasal I asked glenna where we're going to print our report and she said at SD. Why does everything have to remind me of you? <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>I saw kirk and gerald on the way back. and breathed when I saw that you were not with them. I'm not prepared to see you face to face. the only thing I know is that i'll always be ready to break down. I was like a walking cadaver since days ago, lifeless. It's like I want to see you everytime I look around and at the same time I don't want to. What would I do If I see you? how would I react?<br> me and ems went to rob and sat at chowking, talking about stuff like birthdays. How we don't want to celebrate coz we know it'll be sad for both of us. How the christmas decos in rob reminded me how much you're excited about christmas. we talked about stuff that didn't exist anymore. that won't exist.<br> Kelvin came just in time for me to leave for our pe practice at 4pm. they held me back but I won't bcoz we have to practice. they even tried to scare me when they said that I'll only see you there. They were right.<br> I SAW YOU. at around 4'15, walking out to the right of gate 1 accompanied by 2 friends. Just in time that I turned left to go inside. I freezed again, then felt the tears welling up. I rushed to the cc and sat and stared.<br> I wanted to cry through practice, I couldn't even concentrate on anything anymore. After the practice I went out and waited for ems&vin at gate1. looking around and searching only for your face. I wanted to cry right there&then and finally I did when they picked me up and brought me home.. I cried all the way.<br> I couldn't stop feeling that I don't have anything to do in this world anymore. I was out of place. I don't even want to be with my friends, they will just absorb my sorrows, and I don't want them too. I don't want to stay all by myself,i'll only think of you(although I do all the time) all this time I wanted to be with you. just you. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> and I lost you.</p> <p>I cried again when I had finally decided to open my ym,and faced whatever disappointment laid before me.</p> <p>you replied last night <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/02/5-cowardice-4811537/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-01:/2008/10/01/4-monday-and-friends-4806729/karmina7172008-10-01T15:00:05+02:002008-10-01T15:00:05+02:00 <p>Emmelie and my friends cheered me up on that awful fist school day of the week. I laughed, kid around, but I never was happy. We had lunch n Jbee, and jaivee, believe me, everything kept reminding me of you<img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0">.<br> Your classmates were there, then when we were eating, kenneth said that she didn't like lettuces on burgers so she took them off the way you did. I cringed to the thought. You never liked veggies. I started spilling ketchup and dropping things clumsily.<br> This is just the first day and a lot of things are already reminding me of you. how much more for the upcoming days? weeks? months? YEARS? <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"><br> Ems went home with me. Then Kelvin picked us up and treated us dinner at chicken hauz. They tried to consume my time, but still, you don't leave my mind, your always there. and I know, for years, sorrow will wrap me everytime I'm alone on my bed thinking of you <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/01/4-monday-and-friends-4806729/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-01:/2008/10/01/3-sept-29-2008-undying-love-4806657/karmina7172008-10-01T14:48:05+02:002008-10-01T14:48:05+02:00 <a href="http://www.imeem.com/empots75/music/6-x6246r/boys_ii_men_on_bended_knees/">On Bended Knees - Boys II Men</a> <p><em>I'll pretend to write these letters to you and to send them afterward just for me to express my feelings to, and I would really like you to read them, but I know I'm not allowed, for it only hurts you more and you asked me not to.</em></p> <p>The night you broke up with me, last 26th of Sept., my beautiful little world emptied. I know I deserve this because of my lies to you, and I really am sorry. You were very angry at me. And I can't blame you `coz I was the one who hurt you, the one who ruined "US". I didn't want to give up for I know I can't bear this pain. That's why I decided to talk to you next day after NSTP class. I remember everything that happened that day, I tried to talk you out of it and pleaded you with my useless, stupid sorry-s. That cloudy afternoon, when you walked away after you took me home, I felt so depressed. very much. I texted you, yet I never had any reply. I reminded myself, that you were reminding me that I should stop hoping coz I've got no chance. But I still can't let it be, it's too hard. I slept that night with teArs in my eyes and I was too tired to fight the pain.<br> That Sunday morning, I texted you, and again on noon, still there's no reply. From the moment I woke up, you were the one who occupied my mind, and as hours pass by, it felt like waiting for eternity. Torture. I deserve this, I know. I can't bear another single minute without hearing from you so I called you. I couldn't breathe. I didn't know waht to say.<br> My last favor was for you to let me be your friend and I'll wait for you to forgive me, even if it takes a year, that way, I can let you see and I can prove to you that I'm sorry for what I've done and for me to do everything to bring back your trust. But you won't accept it, you kept telling me it's over and you said that you'll prefer to treat meas an enemy than as a friend. and you told me that you're hurting too, but you just won't accept me ever again.<br> I cried to you, I always do, and after trying to convince you and failed, I gave up. I decided to follow what you asked instead. I won't forget that last phone call, how it ended. You asked me if there's anything more i want to say, of course there were lots to say but I settled in telling you how much I love you and I'm sorry. Then I asked you, your response tore me apart. you said,"In, di na mag asa pa.bye" I drowned in tears.<br> The pain was too much to bear.an hour later you texted me, but I mourned over to what it said, that I shouldn't contact you in any way for it hurts you. and I didn't reply until you sent another one saying that I shouldn't have called that night coz it made you remember the pain. I followed what you asked. and your last text to me was,"shit!"<br> I hugged and kissed your teddy that night and cried to him. It felt like you. It always do. But I wasn't able to sleep until I put him aside.<br> Monday, I remebered you told me on the phone that you didn't want to see me coz you'll hurt again remembering. I'm afraid to see you though, coz when i do, my heart my mind my soul shouts for you, craves for you, LOVES YOU. And that way, I can never forget you. My love for you will never cease, that's for sure. This monday, I'm glad you didn't see me, i don't want you hurting, but I am hurting to, more over when I see you, but our difference is, I WANT to see you. I miss you <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/01/3-sept-29-2008-undying-love-4806657/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:karmina.blog.co.uk,2008-10-01:/2008/10/01/sept-24-2008-thoughts-2days-before-the-break-up-4806424/karmina7172008-10-01T14:11:03+02:002008-10-01T14:12:11+02:00 <p><em>Sometimes, when I'm all alone and have nothing to do, I'd always think things about you, about us.But it's always you.<br> Sometimes I'd think of unpleasant stuff,nahh, I'd say mostly.<br> I can only think of happy times when we're together, for when I do, without you by my side, that'll make me miss you more.<br> About the unpleasant stuff, I mean about thoughts that makes me cry.<br> May it be what happened about us, what i've done wrong, that I shouldn't have hurt you and I always regret those times I made your precious tears fell.<br> I don't want to reminisce those moments for it crushes my heart. I'd always feel guilty about it. You know Jaiv, sometimes, I'm thinking about what my life would be have you not been a part of it. I realized, then I couldn't have felt nirvana. You were always there, just waiting for me to lean on to you and make me feel that everything's going to be alright. And it always does because YOU were THERE to make it right for me.<br> When the time comes that you have to go away, I know deep in my heart and in my soul, my love for you,my jaivee, will never change. I've imagined it already and every time I do, I find myself crying to sleep for days now. I'll miss you. And my love will keep on yearning for you.<br> You see, you're my intense pain and extreme happiness. No one can hurt me and inflict pain on me as much as your absence can cause. Nobody, can lift my spirits up and let it soar as much as you do. You love just watching me, and through your eyes, I can see that you're always ready to catch me if I fall. I hope you can see just how much I love you too.♥</em></p> <p>*I didn't know that we'd break up 2days after I wrote this* <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cry.gif" alt=":'(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://karmina.blog.co.uk/2008/10/01/sept-24-2008-thoughts-2days-before-the-break-up-4806424/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>