Sometimes, when I'm all alone and have nothing to do, I'd always think things about you, about us.But it's always you.
Sometimes I'd think of unpleasant stuff,nahh, I'd say mostly.
I can only think of happy times when we're together, for when I do, without you by my side, that'll make me miss you more.
About the unpleasant stuff, I mean about thoughts that makes me cry.
May it be what happened about us, what i've done wrong, that I shouldn't have hurt you and I always regret those times I made your precious tears fell.
I don't want to reminisce those moments for it crushes my heart. I'd always feel guilty about it. You know Jaiv, sometimes, I'm thinking about what my life would be have you not been a part of it. I realized, then I couldn't have felt nirvana. You were always there, just waiting for me to lean on to you and make me feel that everything's going to be alright. And it always does because YOU were THERE to make it right for me.
When the time comes that you have to go away, I know deep in my heart and in my soul, my love for you,my jaivee, will never change. I've imagined it already and every time I do, I find myself crying to sleep for days now. I'll miss you. And my love will keep on yearning for you.
You see, you're my intense pain and extreme happiness. No one can hurt me and inflict pain on me as much as your absence can cause. Nobody, can lift my spirits up and let it soar as much as you do. You love just watching me, and through your eyes, I can see that you're always ready to catch me if I fall. I hope you can see just how much I love you too.♥
*I didn't know that we'd break up 2days after I wrote this* 
